I haven't felt that the Lord has said I could proclaim complete healing yet. As much as I want to, I haven't felt HIM say, "tell the world!"
28 When he had gone indoors, the blind men came to him, and he asked them, “Do you believe that I am able to do this?”
“Yes, Lord,” they replied.
29 Then he touched their eyes and said, “According to your faith let it be done to you”; 30 and their sight was restored. Jesus warned them sternly, “See that no one knows about this.” 31 But they went out and spread the news about him all over that region.
I have continued to have auras. By definition, they are still seizures. However, the Mayo Clinic said I could count them separately since I can keep my eyes open and I'm not as tired when they are over...thus, they measure auras only as a sign of improvement.
Last month, I only had 33 for the entire month (and NO "seizures"). This month, I'm already at 32 and we're only half way through...I had eight yesterday and I've already had two this morning. Just a few auras and I still have basic energy. A day like yesterday and I'm completely spent.
We went to see my neurologist last week and she's just as stumped as to why I stopped having seizures. Again, we praise the LORD for that healing!!!!
However, it also leaves her not knowing how to get rid of these auras. Obviously, prayer and complete reliance on the Father is the first step.
“Again I say to you, if two of you agree on earth about anything they ask, it will be done for them by my Father in heaven. For where two or three are gathered in my name, there am I among them.” (ESV)
We are also trying to decide if I start the IVIG again. The last time I did it, the seizures went crazy. However, we found that it was rendering the diet useless due to the proteins in the treatment. So, now that I am on low dose meds (lowest dose I've ever been on without the Ketogenic Diet), in theory, there is something to help with control...The doc also said that the seizures could come back if we start the treatment again.
So, we are stumped. We are trying to hear the Lord and walk in the direction that HE leads, not what makes the most sense to us.
The sweet lady helping us with Miss P came later yesterday which gave me a chance to hang with Miss P by myself. I loved that special Mommy/Daughter time. However, I had one sitting at the desk with her in my arms and I couldn't set her down in enough time. So, I had to just lean over to make sure she didn't fall. She cried the whole time, which made it last longer. It is so frustrating...I just want to be healed so that I can be her Mommy with no fears attached.
Sorry for the long post...Please just continue joining us in prayer for HIS ultimate healing, HIS will to be done, and peace and direction through the process!!
You are each such precious gifts to us! Thank you for your sacrifice of time to beseech HIM on our behalf!