And He said unto me, "My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me."
2 Corinthians 12:9

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

What is a Miracle?

It's what we've been praying for..
It's something man can't accomplish on his own...
Miracle-An event that appears inexplicable by the laws of nature and so is held to be supernatural in origin or an act of God.

Truly, when people have asked us how to pray, our answer has been, "pray for a miracle!!"

When we were at the Mayo Clinic, one of the docs we saw in endocrinology told us that my hypothalamus and pituitary must be working just fine (there was a concern that they were not, which is why we were referred to him).  He told us that the way he knew this is because we were pregnant.  He told us that pregnancy is a miracle in itself.  For every little hormone to release at just the right time is quite a miracle.  Thus, if mine wasn't working properly, we wouldn't have become pregnant the first time we weren't "careful" or possibly at all.

So, we praise the Lord for this miracle that HE has created inside of me.  WOW!!

Part 2:

Due to this sweet little miracle, I have struggled to eat much at all.  Since all of my food has to be weighed on a gram scale and eaten within a certain amount of time, this can't keep happening.  I have struggled most to get my proteins.  So, we found out about Whey Protein.  My dietitian at Mayo recommended it and my PCP agreed.  However, the day I started eating it, my seizures increased and I became sick.  I ate it the next three days at lunch.  The first 13 days of the month, I had 13 seizures (avg 1/day).  In the three days that I ate the Whey Protein, I had 21 seizures (avg 7/day)!!!!!  Why the increase?

Well, I received an e-mail from a parent on the Ketogenic Forum with a list of all of the "other names" that MSG (aka: glutamic acid) can of them is Whey Protein!!  So, we decided no more whey protein.  

In the meantime, I checked the mail and had a letter from the Mayo Clinic.  This letter included my labs.  While at Mayo, my full antibody panel had not made it back.  However, it is back now...

My GAD-65 (Glutamic Acid Decarboxylase) should be <= .02
Mine was 4,415!  Yes, you read that correctly...four thousand four hundred and fifteen!!!!

There was a description beneath these #s that stated:

"it is consistent with organ specific neurologic autoimmunity and predisposition to thyrogastric disorders, such as thyroid autoimmunity, pernicious anemia, and type 1 diabetes."

Hello, I have an autoimmune thyroid condition and we've been asking how this could play into all of this since Day ONE!!!

I put a call in to my neurologist at Mayo today to see what his take was on all of this...he called back this evening to tell me that he had just sent me a letter telling me about his findings.  He spoke with my other neuro and a neuro-oncologist.  They said this means that I have a Paraneoplastic Antibody
which can lead to limbic encephalitis of the temporal lobe.  It can cause cancer and so he wants me to stay on top of mammograms and pelvic exams to continue to rule out cancer.  Though he said that having made it this far without any cancer cells is good news!!

The neuro-onc that he spoke with said that the truth is that treatment is usually best upon onset of the disease.  The fact that we are 4.5 years out could work against us.

The way they treat is through immuno-therapy:
1. high dose steroids
2. IVIg (Intravenous Immunoglobulin)
3. Plasma exchange (plasmapheresis)

He doesn't believe that any of them are safe during pregnancy.  So, as long as I'm not having any generalized seizures, he wants to wait until after the baby is born.  The doc that would be doing the procedures said that 4.5 yrs into this could be too late to treat it.  However, I asked what role pregnancy could be playing...

He said that since pregnancy causes immunosupression that could be why I have had fewer seizures since pregnant.  The hope is that it will continue...he said that after delivery the seizures would probably increase.  However, that could be the "new start" that we need for the treatment to work...

His final statement was, "As I told you, it's rare that we ever have a reason as to why seizures start.  However, I think in your case, we might have an answer!!!" 
WOW!!  The tears are flowing again as I type this!!!  PRAISE JESUS!!!  God, YOU are the Hero!!!!

I couldn't stop the tears or stop from saying, "Praise Jesus," as he was telling me this.  Can you believe it?  He thinks we have an answer!!!  As well, this precious miracle growing inside of me, could be the miracle we need to restart my immune system so that the treatment may work....WOW!  Thank you, Lord, for our miracle that we have been praying for...!!

He wants me to come up after the baby is born and start IVIg treatments...Praise the Lord!  Could we really be seeing the light at the end of the tunnel?  Could this precious baby, this Miracle, be the Miracle we need for healing, as well?

Only the Lord knows, but we are holding out hope that this will be HIS miracle!!  God gets to be the HERO of this story!!!  Praise HIM!!!!


  1. YAY!! Praise God!! Will be praying throughout your whole pregnancy. This is the news that we have all been waiting for!! So excited and amazed how God has worked this all out. Holding out hope that this is the answer!


  2. Meredith-so overjoyed for you! Something to do, something to try, answers within your grasp! truly a miracle!

  3. Such wonderful news!! Praise the Lord!

    (Miracle sounds like a good middle name for a baby ;) )

  4. Praise God!! God has saved you Spiritually, mentally, emotionally through His Son. Perhaps He has chosen to save you physically using your child? We pray He does!!

  5. Trust that it is "Your Season". Blessed happiness and hope.

  6. Hi M & B,

    I sure hope you all this technical jargon and medical knowledge will be of use for the future, it is so hard to keep up and understand it all and glad that you can! It is a complicated puzzle trying to find all the missing pieces, and am overjoyed that a huge piece is starting to fit into place. This is wonderful news, I am ecstatic for you both!

    Love to you both,

  7. WOW! Totally awesome! I am so excited for these miracles!!! I will continue to pray. When are you due?!

  8. Meredith and Ben - Miracle and GOD are the only two words to explain this journey. Meredith, I joined you in tears as I read this post. I am so joyed for you! Look forward to the updates and will pray for you, ben and the baby...
    love, Denice (Sean and Aubrey)