From Connor's Mommy

Friday, September 11, 2009

It was 2 months ago today that Connor left this earth to reside in Heaven. A somber day for our family. I recently completed a Bible Study called "Anointed, Transformed, Redeemed." The author, Beth Moore, spoke on the topic of getting past our devastation with God. It spoke to me so completely. "Nothing has the capacity to cause more destruction in a believer's life than an occurrence that makes us question everything we thought we knew about God. A heart can shatter in so many pieces that we don't think even God could put it back together again. Words fail, but far more consequentially, faith often fails." We may find ourselves in a predicament where we question God's goodness and His sovereignty. I know that Tait and I had many questions after Connor's death. I know that Satan would love nothing more than to convince us that God is not good after all. Beth Moore explores the story of John the Baptist in prison to illustrate God's sovereignty, and His ultimate Healing and plan for our lives - plan for us to spend eternity with Him. In Luke 7:18-23, John was in prison waiting to be executed and he sent his disciples out to ask Jesus if He was truly the one that they had been waiting for. Was He the Messiah? Jesus replied to them, "Go back and tell John what you have seen and heard: The blind receive sight, the lame walk, those who have leprosy are cured, the deaf hear, the dead are raised, and the good news is preached to the poor. Blessed is the man who does not fall away on account of me." As we know from John's story, not only did Jesus allow John to be imprisoned, but He also allowed him to be executed. But, this did not cause John to "fall away" from God even though He did not rescue John from his untimely death. Just like John, God didn't heal or rescue Connor they way we had hoped and prayed for, but more importantly God healed and rescued him in a much more miraculous way. He rescued him from sin and death for all eternity. Just like the miracles Jesus was performing on the masses described that day in Luke 7, He also caused Connor's "blind" eyes to open on July 10, 2009. His eyes opened to the very FACE of GOD. He caused Connor's "lame legs" to DANCE on the streets of gold. No more wheelchair for Connor. He caused his "leprous" sin to be CURED for all eternity. The "dead" was indeed RAISED and Connor heard the best news of all (without his hearing aids) "WELCOME HOME, My good and faithful servant! Enter into your Master's happiness!" Sometimes there's just a bigger plan. The knowledge that God has a bigger and better plan for us gives me comfort and reminds me that God is still good- all the time. Always believing, Joy