Six Years...Memories...Snakes

Well, today, Monday, is a special day. It is the 6 year anniversary of our engagement. I remember some of it, but not much. B reminded me.

On Saturday, we went to a b-day party for our friends' 2 year old. We were actually in the room at the birthing center right before he was born, I went to pick B up from a doc appt, and when we came back, baby C had been born. So, it was fun to get to celebrate his 2nd b-day.

The Lord blessed me on Saturday with another seizure free day! So, when the party was over, we drove downtown to the church where we got married.

W.A. Criswell is the pastor that baptized my Mom....

I've struggled to remember our wedding and so I watch our wedding video quite often, hoping it will jog a memory or two. Anyway, I just knew that I would walk in to the sanctuary and it would all come flooding back into my memory.
The flood that came was tears. I couldn't hold them in. It just broke my heart that I stood there not too long ago and I don't remember it. So, I cried for quite a while. I hate that special memories like these are just gone. That is one of the parts of this health stuff that truly upsets me. I know it "doesn't matter." I've got B right here with me and that's what is important. However, I wanted to walk in and it just be magical. My sweet hubby even tried to re-enact it for me.

I did look at the pew where Granny sat and remembered how proud she was that she was able to walk (she had been in physical therapy/rehab learning to walk again after a stroke) part of the way down the aisle to light the Unity Candle. That is precious to me.

We walked around for a while and B tried to remind me about special parts of the day. Then, we walked outside and found a couple to take our picture.

In our Christmas letter, we stated this:

Five years ago, these were the vows we repeated to each other
I, Ben/Meredith, take you to be my wedded wife/husband
And I do promise in covenant
Before God and these witnesses to be your loving and faithful husband/wife
In plenty and in want
In joy and in sorrow
In sickness and in health
As long as we both shall live

We’ve joked that we are ready for the plenty, the joy, the health, etc. However, the truth is that we feel in our five years of marriage with very tight budgets, sorrow, and sickness, we have experienced a more plentiful, joyous and healthy marriage than those married fifty plus years that have not faced struggles. We have learned what it means for the two to truly become one. We have learned what it means to live out the vows that we said to each other five years ago. We have had to flesh out all of the commitments that marriage requires and more. As crazy as it sounds, we are grateful.

So, despite the yuckiness, I am grateful to have this amazing man by my side. Though sad to not actually remember the day, it was special to go and "re-create" the memory.
When we left, I still hadn't had any seizures and we were rejoicing. So, we decided to go have dinner. We went to Hook, Line, and Sinker, and ate outside. There are signs everywhere telling you not to feed the birds. B accidentally threw a piece of cracker on the ground and the birds took that as a dinner bell. So, we were quickly surrouned.

When we got in the truck, we could barely see through the windows as the birds had "decorated" them for us; as well as, the rest of the truck. So, that called for a stop at the gas station to make driving safe!
We even found a little coffee shop in Deep Ellum that was quaint and fun. Then, we got back to the house and felt so bad we had left the pups inside for so long. We didn't expect to be gone for very long at all. So, the minute we pulled in the drive, I ran in the house and let the dogs out. Next thing I knew, B was telling me to stay outside and don't try to come inside. Scary? Yes!

Finally, I hear him banging on something (obviously killing something). Next thing I know, camera is in hand and I'm taking pics of this:

Yes, when he came inside, there was a 10-12 inch Texas Brown Snake on Hank's food bowl. Gross!! That means I walked right past it. Shudder. We couldn't handle being in the house after this. So, we all loaded up and went for a ride.


The answer my friend is blowin' in the wind...
Y'all are so boring.

What are you lookin' at...?
Hank loves riding in the truck!!

The seizures were back in full force on Sunday and made for a long day. We just wish we understood why I go without them some days and why I have so many on other days. We are so ready for answers. Thank you all for your prayers!!