And He said unto me, "My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me."
2 Corinthians 12:9

Wednesday, May 29, 2019

#HealingForHaylie-Post 96

Haylie’s story is being shared at all the services at Gateway church this weekend. She had so much fun working with the media team to create this video. We are so very thankful for all those that donated last year, and we are hoping to help raise awareness for the critical need for blood donations, especially during the summer, to help save lives. This years goal is to save 10,000 lives. Together we can make a difference. #GiveForLife

Haylie's video 

Tuesday, May 28, 2019

#HealingForHaylie-Post 95

Haylie update- May 23

They just took Haylie back for a spinal tap at 10:54. We have been waiting here since 8:00am and she has gotten so hungry since she hasn’t had anything to eat or drink since last night before she went to bed. She will have her chemo treatment and we will start steroids again tonight. Please pray this round goes much better than last month. She was just starting to get her energy back and get back to doing normal things.

She just got out and I’m sitting here in recovery with her. She usually asks for food when she first wakes up but for some reason she is giving me science facts today. 😂. I have been told that hermit crabs change their shells as they get bigger, and star nosed moles have whiskers, and some brown bears can be white. 🤷🏼‍♀️ I can’t even remember what the other facts were. I ran down the hall to get her some apple juice and the nurse just told me that Haylie said she wishes she was a cat because her parents wouldn’t pay for chemo therapy for a cat and she hates chemo. I don’t know whether to laugh or cry with that comment. Maybe both. I’m certainly glad she is my sweet girl and such a blessing.

Thursday, May 16, 2019

#HealingForHaylie-Post 94

Haylie update - May 15

Life has its up and downs and these last few weeks have been just that. We could use some prayers. I have been wanting to give an update for a couple of weeks, but honestly, I just couldn’t, I have been both physically and emotionally drained.

Haylie went back to school on April 15th and had a great week. She was feeling really good, riding her bike all over the neighborhood, running and playing in the back yard and my heart was so excited. It was like our life was returning to normal. She was almost back to being a normal kid. And then she went in for her monthly round of chemo and steroids and everything changed.

I was unaware of her complete treatment plan in maintenance. The doctors and nurses celebrated with us when we entered maintenance and I was under the impression that life would be almost back to normal. I was told she would have her monthly vincristine and daily chemo pills at home and that was it. Then I learned she would also need 5 straight days of nelarabine (another chemo) every 3 months. Ok, not fun, but we can deal with it. Then for her last round of chemo, her doctor told me that she was going to switch her steroid and put her back on dexamethezone once a month because of new research for t-cell. For some reason, Haylie’s body does NOT react well with dexamethazone. Easter Sunday began her crash. Oh my heart hurt to see her struggle and in such pain after feeling so good and knowing that she would now have to go through this again every 4 weeks for the next year and a half.

After talking to several other moms we have learned a lot about the reality of steroid week. The problem is that most of the kids on their steroids were down for one week and bounce back...only Haylie still hasn’t bounced back. This is week 4 for her and she is just now getting back on her feet. She will have a good day, and then have 4 or 5 terrible days. She wanted to go back to school so badly to see her friends. She actually went 2 days, only for me to get called by her teacher and the school nurse that she totally crashed and can’t walk and I need to get her. She started getting terrible headaches and her leg muscles and knees would totally give out. I have had to carry her up and down the stairs for a couple of weeks. The doctors are confused and we have been back to the hospital 3 times for tests only to still be guessing. It was so hard to have to put her back in her wheelchair. Her body is exhausted and she sleeps more than I’ve ever seen her sleep. She crawled to the top of the stairs the other day, only to be so exhausted that she slept on the floor at the top of the stairs with her legs still dangling off the last 2 steps.

She was so determined to go back to school. She has gotten out of bed a few times and tried to get dressed and fell down several times only to realize that she would not make it back another day. It just broke my heart to see her in tears and there was nothing I could do to help her.

I’ll be honest, I was upset when I found out that we would have one week of every month totally disrupted by steroids. Now, I will be thrilled if it would only be one week, since we are starting week 4 now. Maybe I just needed perspective. I heard a great sermon at church last week. It talked about the term laying our burdens down and what it referenced in the Bible. Ancient caravans traveled on camels and they would place the heavy burden on one camel. At the end of the journey, the camel would lay down and roll the burden off his back. That is what we need to do. I think I got complacent when Haylie was doing so much better, thinking we got this. The truth is, we need Christ every. single. day. not just on the hard days. So I’m laying my burden down, because I know Christ can carry it so much better than I can. The sermon also talked about Him being our shepherd. We are his sheep and we aren’t designed to carry heavy burdens. No one ever heard of a pack sheep! So if you are carrying a burden, lay it down and give it to Jesus. He is far more capable than us.

We were able to make it to church this Sunday and the most precious couple prayed for Haylie. They increased my faith and strengthen my heart. I don’t know why Haylie’s body has had such a bad reaction these past few weeks. The doctors don’t know why either, but we are standing in faith that God has got this so I’m trusting that this next round of chemo will go much better.

The last 2 days have been good days! She has been able to walk up the stairs by herself and is starting to regain her energy. She was supposed to start the next round of chemo and steroids tomorrow, but we have pushed it back one week. Please pray that she continues to improve and the next round of chemo and steroids don’t effect her like before. We really want her to have a semi normal summer this year.

Fear not, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, yes, I will help you, I will uphold you with My righteous hand. Isaiah 41:10
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Getting a checkup

She was supposed to be working on schoolwork and she crawled under the table and fell asleep



Peanut always makes her feel better

Sunday, May 5, 2019

#HealingForHaylie-Post 93

Haylie update -April 29

I am so late posting this. It has been a super busy weekend and I just had time to sit down and post.
We had a wonderful time at the Children’s Cancer Fund Gala on Friday. It was a really rough week and we weren’t sure she was going to make it, but she did! She overcame so many difficult obstacles to get there. We were uncertain if she could do it literally an hour before she walked, but she pulled through. As we were driving out, we saw a rainbow in the sky on a beautiful sunshiny day. Haylie asked me how it was possible, and I was able to tell her that I think God was just smiling on her saying his promises always stand firm and He was going before us to make a way. It certainly brought a smile to our face and hope to our heart. 

It was wonderful to have both sets of grandparents there to watch along with cousins and great friends. She got to walk the runway with Joely Fisher (Princess Leia’s sister) and she got some production pointers by getting to sit in the production booth and run the cameras before the show. It was an amazing night.
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Our rainbow of hope and promise